First stop: IHOP-KC

It was a long, hot drive from Indy to Kansas City, MO, yet it was a very good drive. Had an amazing time just talking to God and asking for His provisions and mercies. Now, I am sitting in The Prayer Room at the International House of Prayer. To my great delight, Misty Edwards is here leading worship.

As I was praying this morning, I asked God to just show up and fill me. Misty Edwards is one of my favorite worship leaders. Her music is all original, powerful, deep, and profound. I listen to her music a lot when I have my devotions. To show up, expecting God to do something amazing, and finding her here was a mind blower. There could not have been a more perfect setting for me to worship and pray, crying out in humility and praise. It was amazing, and just what I needed.

The drive was a real battle, as I wrestled with the future and God’s purpose for me moving to Colorado. As I already said, He showed up, and spoke peace into my heart and mind. This battle is never going to end, but I pray that it gets a little easier. Somehow though, I think it is going to get much harder before it gets any easier.

When I first got here and starting listening and praying, I really felt drawn to read more in Isaiah. There are dozens of verses that jumped off the pages, full of promises and comfort, but these to verses from Isaiah 43 grabbed me in particular:

“…Remember not the former things,

nor consider the things of old.

Behold, I am doing a new thing;

now it springs forth, do you not perceive it?

I will make a way in the wilderness

and rivers in the desert…” (vs. 18-19)

God has got this entire situation handled, better than I could ever attempt to do myself. It all comes back to the questions He has been asking me for weeks, “Dave, how much do you trust me? And to what extent are you willing to surrender your life to live out My love?” Do you realize how intense those questions are? Are you able to fathom the depth of the answer He is asking for? 

I know I have talked a lot about fear, and the insanity of this whole situation, but I do NOT want that to become the focus! I have seen God moving in ways I never thought possible. I stand amazed and in awe! The excitement and joy inside is immeasurable! If He is really for me, then what in the world do I have to fear that will come against me and appose me. NOTHING! That very concept is all through the book of Isaiah. Maybe that is why I have been reading it over and over, absorbing God’s promises. 

Father, I just want to thank you, praise you. I’m resting in a peace only you can provide. You have blessed my heart all day, and I pray in this time I have to cry out to you and worship that I would bless your heart! I am humbled in the presence of your love and surprises. You have promised that nothing can rip me apart from you. I surrender here on earth, in my life, what is already surrendered in heaven itself! Draw me closer to yourself, and fill me to overflowing. I pray a hedge of protection around my life and Ethan’s life, binding Satan and the enemy far from us. My focus is you, as I digress. I speak your healing into my life and the lives of those around me, because you have promised to heal the sick and restore the weak. Consume me, relentlessly. 

A raging war

Every morning, for the past several days, there has been a raging war of conflict of spirit, doubt of decisions, and a struggle with letting go. Unfortunately this morning has been no exception. My mind cannot wrap around this process. Each day has been fantastic and full of newly acquired ground, and the negative mornings do not add up!

Maybe I should back up and make the announcement to those who do not follow me on Facebook. Allow me to share a note I posted for friends and family:


Dear Friends, 


I want to share with you all what is currently taking place in my life, and where I am headed.

For a long time I have been very unhappy and unfulfilled in my life. For a 24, going on 25, year old guy, I have this standard in my mind that is very high, that I have not achieved. The problem is that this standard is very materialistic, worldly, and well, comfortable. 

For as long as I can remember, I have also significantly struggled with my Christian walk. I easily get caught up in old ruts and ways of life. Most of the time, these ruts drag me down, sometimes they just trip me up.

In the past few months, and on a greater level in the last few weeks, I have gotten “down and dirty,” wrestling with my beliefs, life goals, and what it means to have a relationship with God. In doing this I discovered what a selfish person I really am. Maybe this action is not outward, but it is most certainly inward. I have become very aware and convicted of this. As a result, I have realized this too has also stood between me and an awesome relationship with my Creator.

The short version is that I am leaving Indiana in a leap of faith and obedience. I have no permanent home, no job, and no “set plan.” This may seem irrational to an extent, but I assure you its not. After much debate, counsel, and discussion, I firmly believe there is a solid path God has for me. My life is not about me, but about others. My purpose is to leave a legacy behind that shows pure faith, leaving a trail of love, mercy, and grace as I go.

In no way do I ask or expect all of you to understand this. I am headed for Colorado, currently the Denver area then possibly to Colorado Springs. Nothing is certain or set in stone other than I am leaving very soon after the 5th of June. I would like to ask you all to keep me in your thoughts and prayers! There is a lot to do, figure out, and consider as I prepare to leave. There are some things I plan on selling, and other things I plan on giving away, so please watch for a list in the near future. 

I’ll do my very best to keep you all updated of what is going on and my whereabouts. 🙂 If anyone would like to hang out before I leave PLEASE get in touch with me!!! My cell is ***-***-****, you can call or text. 

Love you all!


So there you have the general scoop of things. Believe me, there is much detail involved, and there is a LOT happening, particularly in Colorado that I cannot wait to become a part of, I simply do not have to time to share it all. Yesterday I had a conversation with a very Godly friend of mine. He was a great encouragement to me, and I received heavy confirmation of my decision to move.

Despite the confirmation I received, I also got a very serious warning: things are only going to get harder, more challenging, and the spiritual attack will increase drastically as I seek to leave everything behind and pursue whatever ministry Christ has for me. He told me that particularly in Colorado Springs, things are happening that are both incredible and terrifying spiritually. I trust and respect this mentor of mine to the highest degree, and I know when he tells me something, he is not joking. The scary reality is that he is most likely undermining the situation to an extent.

“What if I stumble, what if I fall…” Those lyrics by the Newsboys grab me. So much of my life has been outward success, but a great deal of personal failure. Here I am letting go of everything and everyone that is familiar to me and my daily life, embracing something completely new with no security, only an insane leap of faith. I have already had some people express their disgust or doubtfulness.

I wish I had time to write out all the tiny details I could never work out myself that God has already taken care of. It blows me away when I think about it. Despite that I struggle with doubt?? What is up with that? I found this verse the other day that has been a great encouragement to me.

You keep him in perfect peace

whose mind is stayed on you,

because he trusts in you.

Trust in the Lord forever,

for the Lord God is an everlasting rock. 

~ Isaiah 26:3-4

I have been reading through Isaiah now for almost a week, and there is so much in there that has encouraged me. When I think of Isaiah, I immediately think of the angel that touched his lips with a hot coal when he told God he was a man of unclean lips. That is me. I have so many “defects” that it confuses me why God would want to take such an interest in me. Yes I know its “for His glory” but sometimes that answer sounds too cliche. 

This morning I found out something that tripped me up. All I will say is I was very disappointed in someone I care a lot about, and the attack immediately launched on me was a taunting that maybe my prayers are not being heard. I have wrestled with that all morning. The reality is that my prayers have very well received, and I need to not be so quick to judge or jump to a conclusion I cannot possible make due to my position. 

I digress. As I finish out this day, I am looking for the movement of God Himself. 

As I finish this post, with Misty Edwards’ I Will Waste My Life playing in the background, these very appropriate lyrics are hitting my ears.

I am in love with You, There is no cost

I am in love with You, There is no loss

I am in love with You, I want to take Your name

I am in love with You, I want to cling to You Jesus

Just let me cling to You Jesus