Many have heard my testimony, many have not. To give you an idea of what my past life has been I will give a brief account.
I grew up in a Christian home, and was more or less the rebel or black sheep of the family. In my teens I became a drug addict and has several run ins with the law. At the age of 17 I made a confession of faith, but it was short lived. I left home and quickly became a heavy partier and even heavier drug addict. My destructive actions caused 4 overdoses, multiple cases of alcohol poisoning, and many attempts at suicide.
At the age of 20, my son Ethan was conceived and born in November of 2007. It was at this time that God really started asking me to take a serious look at where I was headed, as I was only living for the moment and myself. I had a great career and was making ridiculous money. I got some Christian counseling and was able to stop my drug habit.
Not long after my son was born I went through a trying and nasty custody battle. For two and a half years God allowed me to be broken down, exposed to the world, and exposed to his mercy and grace. It was nothing short of a miracle that I was allowed joint legal custody of my son, and today I have an excellent relationship with his mother, who is now married.
During that time of “break down” God sought to destroy my self-confidence, selfishness, pride, and arrogance. I was stripped of self made dignity, and learned that without the love of Christ in my life I was nothing. In October of 2009, I went through a life altering conference called The Crossroads Great Banquet. It was there that I rededicated my life fully to Christ and started the rejuvenation of a solid Christian walk. It was not easy, and did not take place over night. Since that October, God has taught me that He alone is my portion, my provider, my best friend, and my complete joy. I have been able to serve on team at another Great Banquet, work with teen guys in a youth group, and participate in outreach to the homeless.
Before I moved out here to Colorado, I read Crazy Love by Francis Chan. I became even more aware of my purpose in life to serve God, and have an aching desire to do so full time. Through several providential situations, a couple miracles, and some heavy prodding from the hand of God, I abandoned all selfish ambitions and desires. My new life goals are far from financial security, a cozy home, and an easy American life. My passion and desire is to love, serve, and bless others with the talents, skills, and life lessons God has given me. It is almost impossible for me to express the full transformation of mind and attitude I have been given. I have the skills and abilities to have an amazing job, making good money, but I do not want that.
I am looking for the fulfilling calling that God has for my life, serving others. Jesus has served and blessed me time and time again. It is by His mercy I am still alive. Even the mistakes I have made have become blessings. For instance, my son, conceived and born out of wedlock. I have paid grave consequences for that, yet without his entrance into this world, I would most likely be dead. The destructive path I was walking was for myself. Ethan gave me the awareness that there was more to life than just me, resulting in my embracing change and the healing of Christ.
When it comes to the testimony of Jesus Christ in my life, there are no boundaries, no room for holding back to protect against personal embarrassment. My dream is to tell the world what Christ has done for me, how He has delivered me, how He has full Lordship in my life. I continue to be stretched, challenged, and pursued by Him daily. I am far from perfection. The only reward I want, is to stand before the Judgement Seat of Christ and hear Him say, “Well, you had 20-something years of failure and hard knocks, but you used the rest of your life serving, loving, and living Me. Enter into my place of rest son, you are truly mine, and I love you.”
Last night I was introduced to a movement that is led by The Whosoevers. This group consists of several very famous people including Brian “Head” Welch of Korn, Sonny Sandoval of P.O.D., and Lacey Mosley of FlyLeaf. They have an amazing message: God is a god of love and will meet you wherever you are, no matter what you have been through or are going through. Many would probably look at this new movement and criticize the heavy content and so on and so forth. I look at this movement and I see exactly where they are coming from, because I used to be there. God saved me from such a sickening path of death, and there are so many out there on that same path that are extremely hard to reach.
Another great movement I would like to bring to your attention is I Am Second. I would encourage you to take some time and scroll through the many videos of famous people who have been touched by the hand of God, and compelled to make a difference in themselves and around them.