The darkness I wrestle…

For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. 
~ Romans 8:38

Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm. Stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and, as shoes for your feet, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace. In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one; and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God, praying at all times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication. To that end keep alert with all perseverance, making supplication for all the saints, and also for me, that words may be given to me in opening my mouth boldly to proclaim the mystery of the gospel, for which I am an ambassador in chains, that I may declare it boldly, as I ought to speak.
~ Ephesians 6:11-20

Do those words encourage anyone else? I have had a weekend full of attack, temptation, struggle, and worry. Yesterday I actually had a ticket to the Indy 500, but decided to stay home and try to counteract some of the attack I was getting. The problem was that I could barely even pray. It was so heavy and dark. This morning has been better. My very soul has been crushed and oppressed, so this morning has been spent searching myself and asking God for deliverance.

In a week from today, Lord willing, I leave Indiana. The suspense is only climaxing, and the reality of all I am leaving behind continues to grow and overwhelm. I cannot do this alone. I need His help, and I need the help and prayers of others. Something very interesting has taken place though in the last few weeks. God has developed and put together, what appears to be, a solid and expanding network of Christians out in Colorado for me.

If there is one thing I have learned in my life that I am determined to pass on to whoever will listen, it is that we NEED people, close friends and family, and solid Christian brothers and sisters in our lives. We are called to carry one another’s burdens and lift them up in prayer (Galatians 6:2). That is exactly what so many are doing for me right now, and that is a huge encouragement. Having a tight bond of fellowship that we can rely on is essential for growth. It is what being a part of the Vine is all about.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers. This is one of the hardest things I have ever done, and relying on God to smooth out all the details is not easy at all. It is against my very human nature! In fact, there are some HUGE situations He has yes to show direction on, but I trust His timing.


2 thoughts on “The darkness I wrestle…

  1. I will be praying that God will keep you safe in your travels and guide your feet and heart in the direction that is needed to fulfill His will. May you find peace and joy on your journey.


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